Rite now i feel like my body is numbing. Turning into stone waiting for someone to break it in many shattered pieces. My body is shacking while tears refused to come out of my eyes, except for one tats already streamed down my face to the floor.
The earge to cut is stronger then ever. But I dont think im going to do it. Will power might not be in full force but it hasnt completely left my body.
Huge cuts seemed to travel down my body but I cant see them. Though I can feel them burning into me affecting every part of my body.
My stomach has spasms every few seconds. Breathing is getting harder, almost to the point of hypervenilation.
Grunts of pain and regret escape my lips making it even harder to talk.
By tomorow I’ll be fine but its now im worried about. Sometimes I dont my will power will be enough but I’m hopefully wrong in the end.
I’m goin to escape for a while. Run away from my torcher like you would run away from something scary.
-Panda Bear
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I’m so sorry you’ve had to struggle with cutting. I hope you find the strength you need to resist and strong support. I hope writing is therapeutic for you when you need it…I use it a lot when I need an outlet. Keep up your willpower and keep writing.